The Train, the Tunnel, and the Santa Hats
You know the blogs that are full of perfect pictures and perfect moments and perfect everything?
This is not that blog.
In the interest of full transparency...
I use AI to help create the beautiful feature images at the top of these posts.
Why?
Because if I tried to make them myself...
Well...
Let me tell you a story.
I have a confession.
I am not perfect.
Or even close.
At all.
In fact, I have evidence to prove it.
Exhibit A
Some time about a decade ago, I desperately needed a day off.
I remember telling my husband how exhausted I was. I needed a break.
He looked at me and said, "Take a sick day."
"But..."
"I'll lose my perfect attendance day."
He gently reminded me that maybe preserving my sanity was worth more than one extra day off.
He had a point.
So I did something completely out of character.
I stayed home.
I turned on some music.
And I decided I was going to paint.
I had always wanted to paint.
My grandmother was wonderfully talented.
My sister inherited that gift too.
Surely there had to be at least a tiny bit of artistic ability hiding somewhere in my DNA.
The day itself was perfect.
Quiet.
Peaceful.
Exactly what my soul needed.
I painted for hours.
When I finished, I was genuinely proud of myself.
It wasn't perfect...
But it was mine.
I couldn't wait for my husband to get home.
The moment he walked through the door, I excitedly held up my masterpiece.
"What do you think?"
(Lesson...don't ask someone what they think unless you actually want to know.)
He stared at it for a minute.
Then, with complete sincerity, he asked,
"That's nice..."
Long pause.
"Is it...a train coming through a tunnel?"
Silence.
A train.
Coming through...
A tunnel.
Friends.
It was supposed to be a grandfather and his grandson sitting on a dock overlooking a pond.
😂😂😂
To this day, I have no idea how he got "train."
We still laugh about it.
And honestly...
I laugh too.
Because while I didn't discover a hidden artistic talent...
I did discover something just as valuable.
Painting was wonderfully therapeutic.
Turns out...
You don't have to be good at something for it to be good for you.
Exhibit B
Christmas.
Pinterest.
Need I say more?
I found these adorable little Santa hats made from Bugles.
"They're so cute!" I thought.
"I can absolutely make these."
Spoiler alert...
I could not.
They were spectacularly awful.
The absolute saddest little Bugle Santa hats you've ever seen.
They looked less like Christmas treats and more like little red rockets.
They were glorious.
Not because they were beautiful.
Because they were hilariously bad.
Naturally, I took pictures and sent them to my friends so we could all laugh together.
Here's what I've come to believe.
One of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves is permission to be beginners.
Permission to make the ugly painting.
Permission to fail spectacularly.
Permission to laugh before we succeed.
I tell my kids all the time:
"You learn from failing, and you can't fail if you don't try."
I want my children to know that being perfect isn't the goal.
Being willing to try is.
Because every once in a while, you'll discover a gift you never knew you had.
And even when you don't...
Life is simply too short to spend it pretending we're good at everything.
Try the thing.
Burn the cookies.
Paint the "train."
Make the terrible Pinterest craft.
Give yourself permission to try new things.
Give yourself permission to be less than perfect.
As my dad always used to say,
"It builds character."
I think he was right.
Turns out...
A little laughter is sometimes the best masterpiece we create.